[tarot]

The last time I read Tarot was probably about 2 years ago for my friend Selena. I've never been one to pull out my cards very often, because I see it more as a way to reflect on life and choices than a way to direct your actions. I don't often use it to "predict the future" because I don't really believe that's what it's meant for.

When my godmother taught me how to read tarot, she was only teaching me ways to reflect on myself. I was only 9 at the time, but I believe she wanted to help me open my mind to other ways of thinking.

I did a reading today, cause I've been super curious what a spread would say the sex of the baby was.

The first time I shuffled the cards, a court card fell out. This was a King of Cups. At first, I thought maybe this card was an indication of the sex of the baby. However after looking up the astrological sign associated with this card, I knew that this could not be correct because the dates were much too far off from my due date (a boy born under the sign of water).

From what I've understood of the King of Cups, if it does not represent a person, it represents diplomacy, patience, giving others the freedom to grow in their own ways, calm during crisis and accepting a different point of view. I interpreted this card as being an indication of needing to find patience and peace throughout the rest of this pregnancy.

I continued to do a normal deck cut, to see what cards would come out.

The first was an upright, "The Chariot". This card is symbolic of a hard fought battle with an eventual victory. It is also the union of opposites in a situation. Finally, it's indicative of needing to find control of your emotions, wants, needs, people and circumstances to pull them together in your favor. I interpreted this card in three ways; finally uniting with Brian (very much opposites), the uniting of my somewhat still childish viewpoint on life to my more responsible side, and also the need to find more control over the way I'm feeling and acting towards others right now so that the end of this will be positive.

The second card was an upright, Queen of Wands (or staffs). This card (when representing a person) represents a female born under the Fire signs (Aries, Leo or Sagittarius). I don't usually interpret king and queen cards to indicate a young child, because they are most often symbolic of an adult. If this really was the answer to my question (which most often falls in the second card on this basic deck-break) then I would be having a girl, under the sign of Aries (closest to my due date) which starts in the end of March and ends April 20th (earlier than my EDD).

The third card was an upright, "The Star". The star is always the most peaceful card in a spread. It looks to the future and always holds a sense of hope and peace. It promises peace of mind to come and reminds to let go of fears and doubts. Although the card isn't particularly symbolic, it's general place is to affirm that the person is following the right track and should continue.

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I'm not a huge proprietor of Tarot, and as I mentioned before- I generally have only used it in times of self reflection or to help others in their own reflection. I've always enjoyed my cards, but I have limited the time I spend with them because I have always believed that I affect my own destiny, so the cards will always have limited information when it comes to my "future".

I wouldn't be surprised if we go to the doctor next month and it is a boy. I won't be surprised if it's a boy and he's late. I can only interpret the cards so much before I am throwing my own desires into the mix. However, I'll be pretty damn impressed if it's a girl and she comes early!