Worrying

So my worrying nature has gotten pretty out of control. I think some of it is healthy and some of it is just insane.

I was reading a post from a girl who said that she had failed her 24wk Glucose Test, which means she may have Gestational Diabetes. Immediately, I had something else to be concerned about. I went and googled the symptoms and people who are at risk for contracting this and continued to freak out.

I'm over 160lbs and I'm hispanic. So pretty much the cards are stacked against me.

The healthy part of this, is after reading it I got so freaked out it's always in the back of my head keeping my diet in check. I've tried to eat as well as possible during my pregnancy...and still only gained about 5lbs. It's also kept me motivaited to work out.

The negative part of this, is the worrying. I probably have a month or so before I will take the test and until I do it will sit in the back of my head picking at my brain.

This kind of thing happens with anything I read that could apply to me. Conditions I could contract during pregnancy, things that could go wrong and problems that could happen to Davin in utero or after birth.

It's enough to make me insane.

So... as I'm sitting here worrying about everything, Davin's kicking me right around the waistline. Why does his feet lie right at my pants line and why does he love to kick me right there? lol. It's still really weird to feel him kick, most of the time I'm worried that my pants are too tight and I'm cutting off circulation. It's such a strange feeling.

I guess I've realized that all this worrying is just preparing me for being a mom- a lifetime of worrying about your child's saftey and happiness.

I've got to take a deep breath and realize it's all out of my hands. I know this.


Easier said than done!