Is it Time Yet?

I don't usually watch a lot of those baby shows on the Discovery Channel. Unlike a lot of the pregnant women I talk to, they just don't peak my interest very often.

Last night, there was a new series on Discovery Health called, "Deliver Me". It's just like all the other baby shows in that it portrays mothers giving birth and going through the pregnancy experience. I decided to watch it because there wasn't anything else on and I figured Brian could use a bit of a reality check on what labor is really like.

How ironic that one of the mothers being featured was hospitalized for Preeclampsia/Toxemia.

I think Brian finally realized how serious all of this is. The show explained some of the more dramatic side effects of the condition (stroke, seizures, organ failure) and it was easier to make these connections because she was just as far along as I am. After a short stay in the hospital, they delivered her baby via c-section at a little over 34 weeks.

After the show was over, we had to finally address the question, "what will we do if they put you in the hospital?" I realized Brian was probably feeling a little helpless and unprepared because I hadn't packed a hospital bag or given him some of the information he would need if that were to arise.

It's all real to me, I am very aware that what my body is doing right now is not good for me or the baby. I guess I've just assumed that everything will be okay, I'll spend another 4-6 weeks on the couch and then they'll get me into the hospital to deliver this boy. I knew about the risks and possible complications, but I hadn't really confronted them.

I have another OB appointment today and I'm looking forward to getting more information from her. Hopefully she was able to get my charts and look at them, to give me a better understanding of everything that's happened up until now.

In the meantime, I'm just praying that we avoid the hospital trip until it's really time.