You wrote on Mar. 11, 2008 at 1:46 PM
This is kind of a tough question for me...
I did not feel like I was ready to have a kid. Although I was engaged and had already graduated college, I didn't feel like my relationship with my fiance was stable enough to raise a child. I never thought twice about keeping this baby, but I was very shocked and a little unhappy that we had concieved. In the first few months I was a little resentful, because my life was changing so dramatically and I felt as if I was losing a lot of myself (my friends, my social life, my job, etc.)
My son has already changed me in ways I never imagined. He solidified the bond between my husband and I and finally gave us a reason to work our problems out. Although I lost a lot of friends, they weren't worth my time to begin with. I found strength and courage I never knew I had. This pregnancy, was a blessing in disguise.
I don't like the word regret and if I felt any, it was short lived and self centered. I know that this child was some sort of divine intervention, because my life the way I was living it was really not worth much. As difficult as this pregnancy has been due to my health, I would do it all over again in a heartbeat.
I know that once he's here, my life will completely revolve around him. I wouldn't have it any other way.
I did not feel like I was ready to have a kid. Although I was engaged and had already graduated college, I didn't feel like my relationship with my fiance was stable enough to raise a child. I never thought twice about keeping this baby, but I was very shocked and a little unhappy that we had concieved. In the first few months I was a little resentful, because my life was changing so dramatically and I felt as if I was losing a lot of myself (my friends, my social life, my job, etc.)
My son has already changed me in ways I never imagined. He solidified the bond between my husband and I and finally gave us a reason to work our problems out. Although I lost a lot of friends, they weren't worth my time to begin with. I found strength and courage I never knew I had. This pregnancy, was a blessing in disguise.
I don't like the word regret and if I felt any, it was short lived and self centered. I know that this child was some sort of divine intervention, because my life the way I was living it was really not worth much. As difficult as this pregnancy has been due to my health, I would do it all over again in a heartbeat.
I know that once he's here, my life will completely revolve around him. I wouldn't have it any other way.
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