Surreal

Although I've been on the edge of having this baby for weeks now, it still really hasn't sunk in that I'm about to give birth. I'm very aware of all of the symptoms I need to look out for and I'm on high alert hoping I don't get sick, but thanks to the fragile state of my pregnancy I have had very little time to focus on the fact there is a baby coming.

It's a little surreal. Even when you wake up every morning, feel your child kicking and poking you, it's hard to get your head around the fact he's a full grown baby now and will be making his way out into the world soon.

I think all of the extra tests, appointments and hospital visits have kept me from really freaking out about the actual LABOR. I guess with as much as we have been through already, Labor looks more like the light at the end of the tunnel and not the looming dark pit that most women start fearing towards the end.

Yes, I'm going to be a mommy soon. I'm still not really mentally understanding that and I might not until he's actually here.

I just wake up every morning so grateful that we're both still alive and healthy. The rest of it is still a little surreal.